Lately i've been feeling kind of. Advice please!?

Get happy girl :) Sounds to me like your "depression" if not dealt with and conquered is gonna make you miss out on a lot of happy moments in life. If you are a college freshman, you are not stupid and you have some direction and gaols - good for you. You need to see positive around you and make it your priority to get out of the victim role you are playing. Even reading your post depressed me. What has made you unlovable? Why are you doomed for negativity? Whether you have a shot with "that guy" or not really does not matter - cuz truth is, you don't feel that you even deserve him and he will eventually leave you over that. You have to feel worthy of a guy/relationship before you can have one. Get busy making yourself happy (since it appears that you already got the attractiveness issue solved). Once you find your happiness and joy in life, the relationships will come. I know you said that you don't want to hear that he has moved on or that you missed your chance - but whether he did or you did - does not matter. YOU NEED TO MOVE ON and make yourself a better and happier person so you can expect and give the same in return within any relationship. College is the best and easiest place to change/improve - take this opportunity and be happy.